"Today's Special" lyrics

Reflections surfaced a sense of hope
I've seen the signs
When fucking up means something more
I'll end my time

I've waited a long time to make it the last time
And it's hard see what I have come to know
When all in all I know nothing's for sure

I blame myself for what is lost
I've seen the signs
When all I have is all I've got
I'll end my time

I've waited a long time, and now it's the last time
I see myself through all my condescending pride
I've seen it all and all I choose to hide

I see the world's forgotten all of my failures
I see I'm on the rise (I'll bet it all on a word)
I've finally found a place where I feel right
I've seen the world and now I understand
I can't rely on everything

I've seen the world
It's not what it's worth
Is it what I want for me?

See what it's worth (I know it's worth)
So I'll be waiting

Someday I'll think I have it all
Until then I'll strive for something more
When I've seen the signs
I'll end my time