"Own Devices" lyrics
I got A&Rs in my DMs going loco
I used to buy bars but
I couldn't feel un poco
I do not have follow through
I did not take the photo
Didn't shake the hand
I did my best and
It was not enough, bozo
I cannot respond to good news (No!)
I don't open it like
Part of me is wanting to lose (Oh!)
I mean I own that shit
My real ID says Black Sheep too
Like label who like
Who would I even be
If I got better?
No I never moved on
Everyone I dream about's from childhood
But I can't remember their face
Avatars online tell me to
Overdose on fentanyl
I'm sorry I missed your funeral
I did not have your strength
And I count myself among the dead
I was not supposed to make it here
I guess I didn't
I don't know what I am doing
But I'm at a ten
My whole body froze but the pen
And I let that bitch
(Wail, wail, wail, wail
Wail, wail, wail, wail)
All-time hater
All-time loser
All the time a beggar
Tryna play it like a chooser
Need the validation of
A few big institutions
So I can better complain
About them in great minutia
To like whoever will listen
I can't help it
I can't fix it
I need more extensive therapy
Than any career could fit in
Need intensive therapy
For my last therapist
Indifferent to everyone
To everything but the kick it's
Womp womp womp
Womp womp womp
Womp womp
If I take the time to feel
I know it won't let up
I get so angry
I get high so I don't erupt
I can't afford another
Trip to the hospital
(911 what's your emergency?)
I'm living in my head
I'm telling me to kill myself
I am already dead
I've lost every sensation
Don't remember what I said
I can't recall too much these days
I think it's for the best
No I never moved on
Everyone I dream about's from childhood
But I can't remember their face
Avatars online tell me to
Overdose on fentanyl
I'm sorry I missed your funeral
I did not have your strength
And I count myself among the dead
I was not supposed to make it here
I guess I didn't
I don't know what I am doing
But I'm at a ten
My whole body froze but the pen
And I let that bitch
(Wail, wail, wail, wail
Wail, wail, wail, wail)
Tell 'em it's untouchable
I'm untouchable
I am the pocket
Like an uncrustable
I am the socket
Am the plug
Am highly combustible
I am the faucet
Am the rust
Am deeply uncomfortable
I get so overwhelmed
I'm so dysfunctional
It's unconscionable how I live now
It's so sick in the head
My whole body hurts with wanting
When I'm not in my bed
Left to my own devices
I will end up like dead
I think about you all the time
Wish I'd gone instead
No I never moved on
Everyone I dream about's from childhood
But I can't remember their face
Avatars online tell me to
Overdose on fentanyl
I'm sorry I missed your funeral
I did not have your strength
And I count myself among the dead
I was not supposed to make it here
I guess I didn't
I don't know what I am doing
But I'm at a ten
My whole body froze but the pen
And I let that bitch
I used to buy bars but
I couldn't feel un poco
I do not have follow through
I did not take the photo
Didn't shake the hand
I did my best and
It was not enough, bozo
I cannot respond to good news (No!)
I don't open it like
Part of me is wanting to lose (Oh!)
I mean I own that shit
My real ID says Black Sheep too
Like label who like
Who would I even be
If I got better?
No I never moved on
Everyone I dream about's from childhood
But I can't remember their face
Avatars online tell me to
Overdose on fentanyl
I'm sorry I missed your funeral
I did not have your strength
And I count myself among the dead
I was not supposed to make it here
I guess I didn't
I don't know what I am doing
But I'm at a ten
My whole body froze but the pen
And I let that bitch
(Wail, wail, wail, wail
Wail, wail, wail, wail)
All-time hater
All-time loser
All the time a beggar
Tryna play it like a chooser
Need the validation of
A few big institutions
So I can better complain
About them in great minutia
To like whoever will listen
I can't help it
I can't fix it
I need more extensive therapy
Than any career could fit in
Need intensive therapy
For my last therapist
Indifferent to everyone
To everything but the kick it's
Womp womp womp
Womp womp womp
Womp womp
If I take the time to feel
I know it won't let up
I get so angry
I get high so I don't erupt
I can't afford another
Trip to the hospital
(911 what's your emergency?)
I'm living in my head
I'm telling me to kill myself
I am already dead
I've lost every sensation
Don't remember what I said
I can't recall too much these days
I think it's for the best
No I never moved on
Everyone I dream about's from childhood
But I can't remember their face
Avatars online tell me to
Overdose on fentanyl
I'm sorry I missed your funeral
I did not have your strength
And I count myself among the dead
I was not supposed to make it here
I guess I didn't
I don't know what I am doing
But I'm at a ten
My whole body froze but the pen
And I let that bitch
(Wail, wail, wail, wail
Wail, wail, wail, wail)
Tell 'em it's untouchable
I'm untouchable
I am the pocket
Like an uncrustable
I am the socket
Am the plug
Am highly combustible
I am the faucet
Am the rust
Am deeply uncomfortable
I get so overwhelmed
I'm so dysfunctional
It's unconscionable how I live now
It's so sick in the head
My whole body hurts with wanting
When I'm not in my bed
Left to my own devices
I will end up like dead
I think about you all the time
Wish I'd gone instead
No I never moved on
Everyone I dream about's from childhood
But I can't remember their face
Avatars online tell me to
Overdose on fentanyl
I'm sorry I missed your funeral
I did not have your strength
And I count myself among the dead
I was not supposed to make it here
I guess I didn't
I don't know what I am doing
But I'm at a ten
My whole body froze but the pen
And I let that bitch
Writer(s): Lianthang Puia, Sophia Hunter Dillon
