"Shine (死ね)" lyrics

Waking up dead
I just wanna stay in bed
I've been eaten up alive by what was my deepest dread
All gods have forsaken me
After they made fun of me
Honestly, I feel so weak nothing more will bother me

I played with fire, but couldn't feel that I was burning
It's been like walking on a tightrope while this storm was forming

Despair has led me just where I never thought I'd go
But here I am, counting days 'til the end
The earth is a place in hell, I guess I'm just another condemned soul then
Can't hurt me, I'm not alive, just breathing
I think I'm about to shine

I've spent so much time worrying
'Bout what was in my head
Could say it was all worth it
But it left me sick instead
Life is dark and it's asking me to shine
Life is dark and I'm afraid I'm going to fucking die

Oh no

This was my final let-down
I changed completely now
Can't recognize myself but
At least I won't be found

So this is what is like
To be left without light so I can't see
Anything and anyone, it's all gone, it's all gone
Can't hurt me, I'm not alive, just breathing
I think I'm about to shine

I've spent so much time worrying
'Bout what was in my head
Could say it was all worth it
But it left me sick instead
Life is dark and it's asking me to shine
Life is dark and I'm afraid I'm already fucking dying
Dying

I feel it
It's coming
Don't worry
You can't avoid your turn