"I'm 30" lyrics

What the hell is wrong with me?
I've hit 30 but I don't think I'm where I should be
Or maybe I can't see
My past lives in my head rent free
And it's weighing me down
Can't climb back up a hill so steep
It's time to...

Back at 17
Maybe I was shy
But from all it seemed, a nice guy
Couldn't feel complete
Even if I tried
Maybe it's in my DNA

What the hell is wrong with me?
I'm 30 but I don't think I'm where I should be
It's time to rise up and let go

I've always been a fraud
I couldn't be myself
With a soul so flawed, so dead
No one cared for me
At least that's what I thought
But I was pushing them away

My past lives in my head rent free
And it's weighing me down
Can't climb back up a hill so steep
It's time to rise up and let go

Let's be real I'm still the same as I was back then
A selfish narcissist who'll die alone with no friends
I sobered up because I wanted to feel again
But why the fuck do I still feel down?

Tell me why...
Why the fuck do I still feel down?
I still feel down
I still feel down
Tell me why...
Why the fuck do I still feel down?

What the hell is wrong with me?
I'm 30 but I don't think I'm where I should be
Or maybe I can't see
My past lives in my head rent free
And it's weighing me down
Can't climb back up a hill so steep

I'm where I should be
Nothing's wrong with me, no
I'm where I should be
And nothing's wrong with me
But why the fuck do I still feel down?
Tell me why the fuck do I still feel down?