"Changes" lyrics

I say I changed, I know I try
But everyday I look inside
I still got a ways away, got more to climb
I'm still learning how to change my state of mind, yeah
I remember days going through hell and
Feeling all the pain, it really felt like
It never goes away, then I remember
Sometimes it'll rain but not forever, no, no

I've had a guard around my heart for so long
It made it hard for me to see where I go wrong
Started believing there's nowhere I belong
Hated the feeling, how it came on so strong
Chained, yeah
To all the guilt and the shame
No money, power or fame
But take these feelings away, no, no

I had to live with my bad decisions
It's hard to give you your self-forgiveness
The more I felt, well the less I tried
That only made things worse in time
The days that I've wasted
I'm being complacent
It's hard to be patient
Going through these changes

I say I changed, I know I try
But everyday I look inside
I still got a ways away, got more to climb
I'm still learning how to change my state of mind, yeah
I remember days going through hell and
Feeling all the pain, it really felt like
It never goes away, then I remember
Sometimes it'll rain but not forever, no, no

Rain down on me
If that means I don't need to be
Sad for too long 'cause it gets so lonely
In my head
I start replaying everything that I said
No doubt about it, I wish that I was dead before
Don't wanna live no more
Lately I been thinking 'bout it, I don't wanna go

It's time that I move on
From places I don't belong
Hope it won't be too long
To see that I've come so far
From where I came from
It ain't over to list 'em
And I know that I won't give up
No, I'll be holding on, just going through these changes

I say I changed, I know I try
But everyday I look inside
I still got a ways away, got more to climb
I'm still learning how to change my state of mind, yeah
I remember days going through hell and
Feeling all the pain, it really felt like
It never goes away, then I remember
Sometimes it will rain but not forever, no, no