"Bathed In Solitude" lyrics

I found the beauty in tragedy
Searching for solace in silent screaming
Felt all the power corruption brings
But only solitude remains

Bathed in the blood of my enemies
Malignant spirits still call out to me
And now their voices are deafening
But I can't imagine any other way

Now I'm writhing in the dirt
I love it cause it hurts
It's us against the world
We're not gonna make it

For too long I've been stuck in my ways
Playing the part, but emotions decay
Save your compassion, I can't relate
Now that my senses have all but left me

Never wanted to stay, I did anyway
Despite the fact that every act is a sad charade
Driven only by disdain, why pretend that I feel the same?

I tried to open my mind with the sharpest knife
But the incision took my vision and blurred the lines
Got no reason to live, can't forgive myself this time

Why do I love to suffer?
Paid for crimes of another
Bleeding, pleading for comfort
Break me, wake me from slumber

Now I'm writhing in the dirt
I love it cause it hurts
It's us against the world
We're not gonna make it

(We're not gonna make it)
I've let the darkness take a hold of me
Maybe it strikes me down
Maybe I bleed
But I'm chasing a feeling
It's all I need
Nothing can break the chains
I tossed the key

I'm not perfect
I'm not whole
I can't keep trying
To unravel it all
My spirit, heart and soul

Now I'm writhing in the dirt
I love it cause it hurts
It's us against the world
We're not gonna make it

Don't try to break my curse
It only makes it worse
Just leave me in the hearse
I love it cause it hurts