"Under Your Knife" lyrics

I held your hand, withstanding your demands
Enchanted by the rapture that you promised me
Under your knife, deprived of normal life
I strived to find the meaning that would set me free

A broken promise in an ocean of mistakes
You'll reassure me that I'm happier this way

But I can't seem to forget
Each time you lied for profit
And it's making me nauseous
To hide your crimes of passion

Now every day's the same, can't will away
The pain that you've inflicted is a part of me
Praying for death, regrets are all I've kept
You've left me in the dark to writhe in agony

I never thought the cost of love once lost
Could rot me from the inside out in atrophy
I was so blind to signs of our demise
Realized nothing's alright but now it's far too late

I'm never honest when I tell you it's okay
There is no cure for us but I can take the pain

But I can't seem to forget
Each time you lied for profit
And it's making me nauseous
To hide your crimes of passion

A shattered trust, the ashes of what once was
A fairy tale with morals destined to fail
Through every truth my spirit sold
I've traded my heart's weight in gold

The scars run deep, haunt me in sleep
Forever drenched in your consequences
Drown the past, I'm fading fast
I've gotta find my way back now
I've gotta find my way back