"Far From OK" lyrics

Look. It's like I'm lookin'
For a reason I don't have to snap
Staring in the mirror
And my reflection laughing back
I try to acclimate to pain
But I just can't adapt
It's like I tried to cut the chain
But both my hands are trapped
From the outside looking in
Everything is happy and poised
From the inside looking out
All I see is static and noise
I try to regain a bit more of the happiness
I know that habit destroys
I'm trapped in a void
I try to get out of my head
But I feel I don't have any choice
Now this the cause and effect
I write to my heart so it fall on my chest
I'm doing so good, but I'm always in debt
Feel like nobody called it a call to collect
Hello? Hello
I'm stronger than it, but
The problem with it is I'm bottling it
Is it really life or is it all a gimmick
All I know is this ain't how I wanna live it
That's why. I got a lot of problems
That don't seem to go away
I just pretend I'm all right
And tell everyone I'm okay
Inside I crumble day to day
I feel it fade away
Far from okay, but
I don't wanna complain
I need something to feel better
To break this evil spell
For all the times this heaven
Sent happiness turned to hell
Oh
Feel me calling out to
Save my patience
I don't care how much longer can I take it
All day and all night, so
So much constant pressure pushing me
I'm
Breaking. My nerves are shot
And my addiction got me shaking
I'll be all right, so
It's like I'm looking for a story arc
A new beginning. I fell in love with
Losing ' cause I never knew of winning
I only want reactions
Something that'll give you feeling
To make you feel alive for
All the trials this life is giving
I lay in bed at night
Awaken off of scattered thoughts
A terrifying mediocrity, I turn and toss
I'm verifying who I am
So you imposters lost
Hole up in my grill in every
Crack just like dental floss
Spitting image of imperfection
I'm dead wrong
A broken compass with no direction
But headstrong
In searchable in affection, this
Not another song. Only made
For the makers, all of y'all can sing along
I got a lot of problems
That don't seem to go away
I just pretend I'm all right
And tell everyone I'm okay
Inside I crumble day to day
I feel it fade away
Far from okay, but
I don't wanna complain
I need something to feel better
To break this evil spell
For all the times this heaven
Sent happiness turned to hell
Oh
Feel me calling out to
Save my patience
I don't care how much longer can I take it
All day and all night, so
So much constant pressure pushing me
I'm breaking
My nerves are shot
And my addiction got me shaking
I'll be all right, so
The way I'm feeling now
I'm going off the deeper end
Sleeping with these demons
Creeping deep into my dreams again
I just couldn't seem to win
These battles with evil men
Don't wanna be lonely
But still I really don't need a friend
I just need to roll up and switch
The sweets and then breathe it in
Relaxing the cranium
Once again, this weed has been
My way of escaping
The darker side of reality
I hate to keep taking this heartless ride
'Cause it's wild to me
To not know the feeling of love
Care, and loyalty
The ones who I used to call
My friends been avoiding me
Women say they love me
But be plotting on extorting me
And when it is important
The support be looking gorgeously
To see people show you love
And don't know you personally
More than the ones that do
It used to be hurting me
But now with this verse it seems
My purpose is worth at least
A life full of accomplishments
With no negative consequences
Confidence is everything when
Chasing a dream
Don't ever lose yourself
Whenever you're out on the scene
Just keep it pushing and block
Away that negative energy
And I guarantee you you gon'
Be set up for the industry, yeah
I need something to feel better
To break this evil spell
For all the times this heaven
Sent happiness turned to hell
Oh
Feel me calling out to save
My patience
I don't care how much longer can I take it
All day and all night, so