"Anxious Body" lyrics

Fell through the seams, it seems
That as of late I've just been aiming for an in between
Can't catch a break because I'm burning my own effigy
Upset my spine so now my feet just fight my crooked lean

I've spent so much time trying to find ways to reason with myself
Instead of doing what I want, I hide away inside my guilt

I never changed when I lied and said I'm better
Edged to the center of my chest to feel the weather
Walked out the door that night the one thing I remembered
Is that at Nina's place I crumbled under pressure

And so I crashed my car into my pretty little mashed up world
When will I ever learn that I come first?
Inside my head I know I'm nothing more

I'm nothing more than just an anxious body
That's all I'll ever be so don't feel sorry
I'm stuck inside this fucking anxious body
Telling me when I should be stressed out

I set myself apart again and in the end it was all for nothing

I lived outside my head again, For one more night
I didn't have a reasoning to leave you like I did
(When I'm the one that's wrong)

And I just can't admit
(That I'm the one at fault)

I try to flip the switch
But I just default to the things that I haven't done wrong