"Fuckin' New Year" lyrics

Still don't understand why you wanted to help me
The long nights I spent praying for someone to hold me up still
I'm so afraid I might ever lose control
Ever let myself go somewhere far from home

Ta-da-da-da-da-da
Ta-da-da-da-da-da

Got weak and old
Another goddamn year
I got no new attitude
For this fucking new year
Got smaller and bruised
Another scar on the wrist
Can't be on good behavior
In this fucking new love

Some say God gives you another chance
I try so hard to live, but my heart says
"Let it go away, let it go to heaven"
I don't know if I still have a chance to be forgiven or forgive
You say I'll be surely okay
But I now realize that even doctors lie
Tryna save me
Tryna save a fool like me

Got weak and old
Another goddamn year
I got no new attitude
For this fucking new year
Got smaller and bruised
Another scar on the wrist
Can't be on good behavior
In this fucking new love

Please, don't save me
Don't even try to save me
Please, don't save me
You don't even try to save me