"Chasing Shadows" lyrics

What's the point in hiding
I'm so disappointed I can't take control of it
Exposing it
Pushed me past the breaking point
It's something we just can't avoid, I'm over it
When the closure hits

In my sleep I picture me with kerosene to light this bitch up and I
See no way to contemplate a better way

And as I'm waiting
All of my memories are fading
I can't remember, I'm chasing
Shadows that tear me apart
Don't let 'em take me away

Even when I got the lights off
I can't escape from the shadows that I saw
I didn't mean to believe in em, I thought
I'd get away but the times wrong
Stuck in this cycle
Look in the mirror
I see the shit clearer behind me
Thought that I might be over this shit
But despite me
Thinking it, pain sinking in and it's likely
Over, over my shoulder
My demons keep sinking their teeth in
It's keeping me dreaming of working this shit out
It's hard to keep breathing it's time that I sit down
I reach for the ceiling and burn this whole shit down
You motherfuckers better listen up
Give it up, thinking I give a fuck
I will keep chasing my past if it isn't stuck
Burning myself to the ground and I wish it luck

And as I'm waiting
All of my memories are fading
I can't remember, I'm chasing
Shadows that tear me apart
And when I see my
World crashing down I will realize
Nothing has changed and I need my
Shadows to tear me apart
Don't let 'em take me away