"amnesia" lyrics

I'm not who you think that I am
There's more to the story than you'd understand
Everything's going as planned
But don't try to love me, I'm stuck in the past

There's hope, but so little to see
And I love the pain until I bleed

Call it quits, with all of my fears I wish
That I had amnesia
So I'd never sink this low down
In my head
Wish me and I never met
But even amnesia
Won't make it easier now

I'll push you away, then I'll cry
Maybe I want you to suffer with me in my mind
And I'm losing track of the time
The further I go, it gets worse and I'm stuck in rewind

There's hope, but so little to see
And I love the pain until I bleed

Call it quits, with all of my fears I wish
That I had amnesia
So I'd never sink this low down
In my head
Wish me and I never met
But even amnesia
Won't make it easier now

God, I wish
That memories don't exist
If I had amnesia
If I had amnesia