"Half Remembered Dream" lyrics

I'm waiting for a train
To take me away
The cost of my vanity
I can't afford to pay
I'm waiting for a change
To not feel this way
I gave up my sanity
For nothing in exchange

I think I'm wasted
And I'll never make it
I'm numb and I'm jaded
And I can't escape it
Yeah, darling, I'm waking
'Cause I feel you fading
There's nowhere to run
The train never comes
I'm sick of this place
I'm sick of LA

I traded my heart for a taste of the fame, yeah
Don't know what love is, but I love cocaine
I love the way that she feels and now I can't feel my pain
I can't feel the mania, I don't feel insane

She swears that I have a problem, like I don't know
That if I don't get a grip, I'm gonna die on this road
I know I'm losing control, I've been losing hope
I swear I'm trying to grow, but this is
This is all that I know

The world that I'm lost in
Is one I can't process
I've been to the bottom
I'm back to the bottle
Already forgot it
Already forgotten
The pain that it causes
Like I didn't cause it

And I think I'm wasted
And I'll never make it
I'm numb and I'm jaded
And I can't escape it
Yeah, darling, I'm waking
'Cause I feel you fading
Your memory's erasing
And I can't escape, no
I can't escape