"i wish you cheated" lyrics

I'm anxious, kinda sad
Hard to be your best when you lost the best you had
Spendin' days just on my phone
Wonderin' where it all went wrong
I'm nervous, pretty wired
I said your name too much, now my lungs got tired
Thinkin' maybe I'm to blame
I just need someone to hate

Oh-oh-oh-ooh
You made this so damn hard for me
You and your goddamn honesty
It got me thinkin'

I wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leavin'
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothin' wrong?

Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh
Wish you did somethin' wrong
Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh
But you did nothin' wrong

Know it's messed up, kinda bad (Oh, oh)
But I wish we didn't talk and you just left like that
I'd be angry instead of numb
Damn it, who have I become?

Oh-oh-oh-ohh
You made this so damn hard for me
You and your goddamn honesty
It got me thinking

I wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leavin'
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothin' wrong?

Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh
Wish you did somethin' wrong
Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh
But you did nothin' wrong

In the middle of the night
I start to fantasize that you would ruin my whole life
Oh-oh-oh, 'cause you're the best I had
And I keep runnin' back like a goddamn fool tryna change your mind
You were all mine
Can't believe I

Wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leavin'
I wish you were the villain (Oh-ooh-woah)
A psycho with no feelings (Oh-oh)
So how do I move on (Oh-oh-oh)
When you did nothin' wrong?