"Merry Go Round" lyrics

Sunday, only one day to rest
Ain't it funny
I spent it crying in bed under the duvet?
Dishes and hoodies scattered like my head, mm
Someday, I'll come off of my meds
It gets ugly on the days I forget
Who I'm becoming when I'm unloving
Of me and my meds

They say that sometimes you gotta drown again to breathe
When life got you down on a merry-go-round as it's spinning and spiraling
Keep on holding
Keep on holding on
Ache in your heart, see no light in the dark
But I swear it'll turn your way
Keep on going
Keep on holding on 'til the merry-go-round

Doctor (Doctor, doctor)
How much longer 'til death?
Smoking chimneys
Ease the pain in my chest
What's the reason?
The voice is screaming
"You're just better off dead"
Someday (Someday) I'll be closer to God
But today I'll give it one more shot
I don't believe it
One day I'll see it at last

Oh, they say that sometimes you gotta drown again to breathe
When life got you down on a merry-go-round as it's spinning and spiraling
Keep on holding
Keep on holding on
Ache in your heart, see no light in the dark
But I swear it'll turn your way
Keep on going
Keep on holding on 'til the merry-go-round