"Black Lung" lyrics

I used to think I was better than this
I used to think I would never fall prey to the ache
To feel something, anything more than
The numbness the that hold me together

Alone inside my house of lies
Telling myself that everything is fine
But the cracks in the walls are starting to show
I can't keep pretending, this is not my home

I've been digging my own grave
Ever since the day I learned to speak
Always making promises, that honestly, I never meant to keep
Looking back at the mess I've made
And those who fell along the way
I'll bury the guilt deep down inside
Before it eats me alive

If there is a God, I'm convinced that he'd want nothing to do with me
I've broken and bruised, abandoned and used everyone within my reach
The bitter taste on my tongue from breathing in the ashes
Black lung, I've got black lung

I've been digging my own grave
Ever since the day I learned to speak
Always making promises, that honestly, I never meant to keep
Looking back at the mess I've made
And those who fell along the way
I'll bury the guilt deep down inside
Before it eats me alive

I'll carve their names into my bones
So you can't see, but I'll still know
I'll carve their names into my bones, into my bones

Safe behind the walls inside my head
I built them up to knock them down again
And now I'm wishing I could see the end
So I can finally rest

I've been digging my own grave
Ever since the day I learned to speak
Always making promises, that honestly, I never meant to keep
Looking back at the mess I've made
And those who fell along the way
I'll bury the guilt deep down inside
Before it eats me alive

Before it eats me alive