"What If I Say It?" lyrics

In your parent's house
In mid-July
You were hurting, and
We both know why
Oh, the sun was beating
Down on us
I was crying, so
I missed my flight

Oh
What does it matter if it was
Twenty something years ago?
Oh
What does it matter if you
Still cannot find a way to cope?

But what if I say?
What if I say it?
What if I say it?
What if I say it?
What if I say?
What if I say it?
What if I say it?
Does that make it real?
Does that make it real?

Yeah, you tell me
That he changed your life
Then you look at me
With guilty eyes
Been feeling like a liar
Been sleeping all day
I'm tired of being angry
I'm tired of being brave
I'm getting in my head
The fear comes in layers
Do you think I'm someone else now?
That you've seen all my shame?

Oh
What does it matter if it was
Twenty something years ago?
Oh
What does it matter if you
Still cannot find a way to cope?

But what if I say?
What if I say it?
What if I say it?
What if I say it?
What if I say?
What if I say it?
What if I say it?
Does that make it real?
Does that make it real?