"Sean" lyrics

Really, I ain't got nothin' better to do
And everything I'm doin' feels irrelevant too
I hate this place, I wanna leave this party
I'm just takin' up space, I wanna be somebody
Of course, I'm aware that I'm not in the position
To stare down a horse's throat if there's gifts to bear
I know that life's a blessing even though it's a mess
Whether intentional or accident, or not payin' attention
So very necessary to create this song
I'm still holdin' on, 'cause my mom chose to call me Sean

And I don't know what brought you here to my music
But thank you for being in the center of my truth
I would still be doin' this even if you never noticed
If only just to keep myself distracted from the loneliness
And it's not a complaint, but maybe you can relate
Let me see you make a face if you're sick of all the fake shit
I wanna pour a drink even though I think
It's more likely that I need to just go to sleep
So very necessary to create these songs
I'm barely holdin' on, but my pops chose to name me Sean
After Sean Connery, haha, go figure