"Used To" lyrics

I used to want everything, all of it, y'all don't even know
There's somethin' in the morals of the stories I was told
I might've got stuck in the storms or the snow
But I never got stabbed with a fork in the road
I used to decorate my childhood with permanent markers
I used to draw my cartoons on the cardboard
Break dance in the front yard where we lived on the corner
People used to honk their horns
I used to scratch records tryin' to hear some hidden messages
But now it seems like I couldn't care less for it
But is the heart half full or half emptiness?
Everybody died penniless
I used to be a skeptic pluggin' up the pockets
All I ever wanted was a little acknowledgment
But now I'm tryin' to honor myself and put trust in the process
As if it wasn't obvious, I haven't got a lot of options

I was so mixed up in it
They told me that I could be the difference
The evening sky ain't above my wishes
But I'm still satisfied to go a mile a minute, come on
I used to drive around my side of the town
Turnt up with the windows down
I came from a school of movin' around
And when I do it now, I still play my music loud, come on

Man, y'all don't even know
I used to, I used to, I used to, used to, used to

I used to think makin' money was the answer
I don't wanna struggle like my mom and dad had to
I'm tryin' to stagger as much as I could possibly gather
But it won't protect us from
I used to believe in happily ever after
Like anything less would've been a disaster
It's another distraction to keep me from asking you
To open the book to look past the last chapter
I used to travel faster than the speed of laughter
Tryin' to catch a Blondie with my rapture
All factor, rusty dagger
Wrapped up in a plain old cellophane wrapper
I used to move like the government tracked ya
But now I move like I drive an old tractor
I wanna keep the future on my calendar
Alive right now 'cause the used to doesn't matter anymore

It never did
None of it matters, it never did
It never didn't