"Dark Paradise" lyrics

I'll say goodbye
To what I thought I knew it meant to be alive
Run back and forth inside my head
I've been counting every reason just to try and make this all make sense
But I keep on coming back with all these
Wounds to stitch
No room to switch
All my panic into something I can
Use to fix
My selfishness

How long will I just sit
And watch the disconnection grow
Til it can't be fixed
The damage done
That's the consequence
Of burning bridges
That you shouldn't have lit

Straight down
I just think it's hard to pretend we're straight now
I can't shake them the complications
That I found
Searching for a future without you
Lusting for something that feels brand new
Wishing you could feel just like I do

Straight down
I can't look myself in the mirror
Holding on til I can see clearer
Hoping I can piece things together

How long will I just sit
And watch the disconnection grow
Til it can't be fixed
The damage done
That's the consequence
Of burning bridges
That you shouldn't have lit

I've got myself to blame
Nobody else but me
For my lack of happiness
I just gave up and that was it
I just don't think it's right for me
To live so selfishly
Why do I always play pretend
Only holding back what I'm feeling within
Only wasting time

How long will I just sit
And watch the disconnection grow
Til it can't be fixed
The damage done
That's the consequence
Of burning bridges
That you shouldn't have lit

The damage done
That's the consequence
Of burning bridges
That you shouldn't have lit

I've got myself to blame
Nobody else but me