"Play Pretend" lyrics

I've been looking for some peace, for some happiness
But the pain is all I really comprehend
I hit a wall, thought it'd fall, I just can't pretend
That I didn't think about it 'til the very end

But that's okay cause I'll just do this again
I'm all talk
I can't get over, the things I'm convinced
Are my fault
It's a curse
That I just can't reverse
But that's okay I'd rather live with pain
Than live in life in vain

Fade out, fade out
I don't wanna be kept around
Where I know that I'm not wanted
I'm just holding on for nothing
Fade out, fade out
I don't wanna be kept around
Where I know that I'm not wanted
I'm just holding on for nothing

For nothing

Think back I was over the fence
But I froze
Regret all the choices I made
But I know
How I act
Lately feels kinda whack
But that doesn't just excuse
The damage that I produce

I always thought that this couldn't be me
Now I lost
Everything that's feels important to me
At what cost
In the end
I just tripped up again
Now I'm playing pretend
I'm playing pretend to agree

Fade out, fade out
I don't wanna be kept around
Where I know that I'm not wanted
I'm just holding on for nothing
Fade out, fade out
I don't wanna be kept around
Where I know that I'm not wanted
I'm just holding on for nothing

I'm holding on for nothing

I've been holding on
All for nothing
I've been holding on
All for nothing

I've been looking for some peace, for some happiness
But the pain is all I really comprehend
It's a curse
That I just can't reverse
But that's okay I'd rather live with pain
Than live in life in vain

Fade out, fade out
I don't wanna be kept around
Where I know that I'm not wanted
I'm just holding on for nothing
Fade out, fade out
I don't wanna be kept around
Where I know that I'm not wanted
I'm just holding on for nothing

I'm just holding on for nothing