"i wish i could tell you that it'll get better" lyrics

Lately I've been fading away
I [?] in my feelings till my head turns gray
But you would never do the same
That's why I'm wasting, I'm wasting away

I wish I could tell you that it'll get better
Though maybe it doesn't but life is forever
I've been wasting away
Slowly but surely my body decays

I feel so out of place, I can never be okay
They keep saying it gets better
But it still hasn't for me
And I wish that I could be more lively
(I can feel my insides turning)

I've been on my own, I've been on my own
And I really feel alone, I feel so alone

I wish I could tell you that it'll get better
Though maybe it doesn't but life is forever
I've been wasting away
Slowly but surely my body decays

I don't know how to go, I've been living on my own
But I really just needed [?]