"my screams are silent" lyrics

I feel like I'm dying
I'm tired of crying
The pain inside is violent
But my screams are silent
I know that you hate me
Why's everyone play me
I'm so used to failing
Rejection don't phase me

Hit a blunt in the back of the bus
'Cause it's freezing as fuck
And I'm in love with drugs
I hate that I'm never enough
So you fell out of love
And that shit really sucks

It's sunny outside of my window
I lie in my sins though
And make sure the blinds closed
I hate that I always feel alone
Have no place to call home
I'm better off solo

I feel like I'm dying
I'm tired of crying
The pain inside is violent
But my screams are silent
I know that you hate me
Why's everyone play me
I'm so used to failing
Rejection don't phase me