"seasons going by like the girls i used to care about" lyrics

I'm so cold
I'm so lost
Grown so old
Now I'm gone
We were younger when I left
But now I'm back and you've moved on

Tell me where I'm going
I've been lost for a minute
I ain't got the time
You just tryna' get my digits
Racing through my brain
Like my mind's in the Olympics
Drinking down the bubbly
Now I'm spinning like a fidget

Seasons going by
Like the girls I fucking cared about
Understanding why
'Cause my life's something I'd do without
You should know I try
But you always fill my mind with doubt
Leaving me alive
But my heart is fucking black by now

My heart is probably gone by now
Buried somewhere in the ground
People change
I stayed the same
Thought I had it figured out
My brain is full of rain and clouds
Everyday I'm filled with doubt
Constant stress
I'll let em down
Take a pill
I'm better now

Take a pill
I'm passing out
Right up on her parents couch
We were at her parents house
But she still topped me with her mouth
We been going through some things
I don't wanna feel this pain
Run away
Forget my name
Run away from everything