"Fears" lyrics

Ay I took my life by the reins can never blame nobody
Ready for when they let me down so yeah I see it coming
Making it this far trust me its been a crazy journey
Learnt a lot of lessons while I was chasing money
Like ay no one is going to be here forever
Everything is seasonal and no rapper is gonna be hot forever
It's quite ironic that the fresher I look
It's the more I realize that damnit I won't be young forever
Life is too short to not be making my own decisions
And I cannot blame the label for my inhibitions
Fact is this is my life my choices and my grind
I'm a grown ass nigga don't be stupid to be pointing fingers
I'm super selfish only think about me
I do me move my shit higher cause in the end its just me
I learnt that my whole life is what I made it to be
When I choose music over books yeah that moment was real
Cause if I flopped I'ma feel it so deep
You see my mama got needs
I left the family house I'll probably have no where to sleep
So I've been questioning me if I be killing these beats
Can I do better Is this the best am I close to my peak
My circle tight only niggas who understand my fears
That see my visions clear know what it took to get me here
God forbid that sometime I be surrounded by yesmen
If that happens then its on me if I pushed away my best friends
Yeah I don't even know if I be anti social or anti new people
My circle so small so we mobile
I'm just hopeful I'm moving in the direction of where my vision is
If there's one thing I'm good at it's the art of over thinking shit
Sometimes I think I'm over prepared
Or am I over calculating there's too much math in my head
See I never once believed that what will be will be
Always gon make it happen wide awake while I viewed my dream
Shit is real
How did we get here
It's impossible to make amends
When freedom of speech could possibly be a lethal end
Impossible to protest or you follow peaceful trends
For sending out your tweets you need one of them VPNs
What're you rapping about you got aspirations blocks
When these rappers say they ill they need vaccination shots
We should stick a long stick in your nose for sticking your nose in places that got your whole body exposed
Positive or negative we getting no results
The present and the future the difference is in the polls
This disease will probably kill you and you'll die with all your hope
And even if you survive the question is who to vote
Tell me how do you deal with the pain
Regardless of how you move the game mutates to a different strain
The face mask won't disguise the evil ways
For the many times you wash your hands
You can't wash your sins away (No)