"Lying To Myself" lyrics

I've spiraled every night
Just let it go
Every motion of your lips was a lie you told
Shouldn't retrace steps, yeah, I should've known
That this place is a waste
Sinks right into my bones

Separation from new to old
I swear the air has never felt so cold
I can't breathe when I'm next to you
I'm always proving worth. What can I do?

Yeah, I sit and I wait for the change in my fate
Luck's never been my friend
Here to remind me of mistakes I've made

Oh, so tear me apart right now
Cause I don't feel much anymore
I carried the weight somehow
And I can't stop it falling
Words became so subliminal
Months pass by where nothing's right at all
I'm lying to myself
So tear me up, yeah, just tear me up

Our connection has faded on
I keep stepping over lines I've drawn
Tried to test our fate? We're already gone
Yeah, I want you to stay, but there's too much that went wrong

So get it off, get it off your chest
Cause the best of us ain't good enough
Make it up, make it up
Just put another fracture in my heart then leave me alone

Yeah, I sit and I wait for the change in my fate
Luck's never been my friend
Here to remind me of mistakes I've made

Oh, so tear me apart right now
Cause I don't feel much anymore
I carried the weight somehow
And I can't stop it falling
Words became so subliminal
Months pass by where nothing's right at all
I'm lying to myself
So tear me up, yeah, just tear me up

I refuse to believe that it was fate
And who am I to expect change?
Don't make me say I never thought it
Hid it when I doubted
Faking every smile, with pain beneath it
Sleep always evasive
Words they're too abrasive
Razor shape moments that we can't ever change

Oh, so tear me apart right now
Cause I don't feel much anymore
I carried the weight somehow
And I can't stop it falling
Words became so subliminal
Months pass by where nothing's right at all
I'm lying to myself
So tear me up, yeah, just tear me up