"oui" lyrics

This book of elements
Has been staring at me ever since
I moved into my house
But I'm trying to cut back
I wish I could put duct tape over my humongous mouth
But I used it all to pack

So forgive me if I say something I never meant to say to you
I hate who I am under the influence of plants I abuse

I try, the smoke is getting into my eyes
I'll say another little white lie but you see the embers glowing through the fog
I try, you see the color change in my eyes
I'll say another little white lie but you can see right through it all

So forgive me if I say something I never meant to say to you
I hate who I am under the influence of plants I abuse

My finger tips turn gray and black from smut on the lighters I use
Either I'm calm or I can talk, I hate that I can't pick and choose

Everything sounds worse when I take a deep breath
Don't let me hit it first, don't let me, don't let me

I hate the smell of the embers
Floating outside of my window
Close it, it's making my head hurt