"Let Go" lyrics

I'm a mess, it's a shame, just a curse, all alone
I can't escape this flow, can't escape it on my own
Can't escape it on my own
Feel the stress, hear the stirring, a rage pushed low
I tried not to let it show, I tried to let it go

I, I lie to my last breath that I'm not gone (Not gone)
I tried being honest once and lost count of all it cost
I keep waking up as somebody new
The absence of me is the proof
Will I be defined by loss or just lost like everyone?

I'm not sure you can hear me but, I'm ready
Let's go

I'm losing count of all the friends I've lost through energy
If I'm not running empty, they don't want a thing from me
I'll send a message out so you can have it clearly set
Half a man without a soul, that's all you'll fucking get
I want to write it down, I want to set in stone
A new start to force the balance so I can feed my soul
Three decades on, I'm still running
They can never say that I'm not trying, ow
Another void in the shade and it feels like drowning
I swear on lives and a God I have no belief in
I am nothing, is that what you wanted from me?
And three decades on, I'm still running
They can never say that I'm not trying

I, I lie to my last breath that I'm not gone (Not gone)
I tried being honest once and lost count of all it cost
I keep waking up as somebody new
The absence of me is the proof
Will I be defined by loss or just lost like everyone?

I'm sick of seeing ghosts in the broken frames at home
Couldn't we have run together?
Because the journey's too much alone
I've contemplated joining you sometimes when I get low
So am I destined to face failure, never to find an afterglow?
Oh no
What the fuck have I become?
No
What the fuck have I become?
I told you I need you
You threw me to the wolves
I promise it's over
I'll find my own way through, yeah

I lie to my last breath that I'm not gone
I tried being honest once and lost count of all it cost
And if that darkness catches up, will I become
Someone no longer defined by loss?
Just lost like everyone

Brace yourself, I'm about to fall off
Brace yourself, I'm about to go off