"Disorder" lyrics

Do you see me lying on the bedroom floor?
Devil's knocking on my door
See me avoiding all of this trouble
Never mind, I lost control
Talking to my mirror, how bad could it be?
Who else could understand it when it isn't me?
Forgetting what I ever stood for
I promised to myself, "never lose my face"
I am not panicking no more
That I am not panicking no more

It always happens when I fall
Bad habits, bad habits
Into this hole I called my home
I still get nervous when we talk
Bad habits, bad habits
Don't know the pain unless you fall
Onto the floor

I won't forget about the memories
They release the best of me
No matter what they heard about me
My actions be wrong, but I'm feeling free
Never look back their thinking is cruel
Reminding myself I am not a fool
What I do is human, what I say is pure
May my words remain unheard
I'm still what I am and never what they meant to be
I am not worthless
I'm breaking the curses
Fuck up your fairy-tale, everyone matters

It always happens when I fall
Bad habits, bad habits
Into this hole I called my home
I still get nervous when we talk
Bad habits, bad habits
Don't know the pain unless you fall
Onto the floor

Don't know unless you fall
Don't know unless you fall
Onto the floor
Don't know unless you fall
Don't know unless you fall
Onto the floor

Fall onto the ground

It always happens when I fall
Into this hole I called my home
I still get nervous when we talk
Don't know the pain unless you fall

It always happens when I fall
Bad habits, bad habits
Into this hole I called my home
I still get nervous when we talk
Bad habits, bad habits
Don't know the pain unless you fall
Onto the floor

Don't know unless you fall
Don't know unless you fall

It always happens when I fall
Into this hole I called my home
I still get nervous when we talk
Don't know the pain unless you fall