"i want(ed) To Die" lyrics

I lost a battle with myself
I hide my feelings on a shelf
My mum tells me I need some help
Then send me help
See, I lost this battle with myself
These feelings I have never felt
They tell me that I need some help
Well, I need some help

Fuck protection, I don't need a vest
Cause the pains trapped in chest
How to heal it don't make sense
I can't lie, yeah the devil now my only friend
Step inside, it's a real mess
I can't lie, must confess
Fuck the fame and the money, I don't need checks
I'm just doing this for my fam all I needs rest

Oh, it's time to die I'm sorry, but mom don't you cry
The lighting my soul so hard to find
So please let me rest alone tonight

I lost a battle with myself
I hide my feelings on a shelf
My mum tells me I need some help
Then send me help
See, I lost this battle with myself
These feelings I have never felt
They tell me that I need some help
Well I need some help

Alone tonight, be left beside, there's no more light on the holy night
My soul was left my body
The vengeance inside me keeps growling
(I lost a battle with myself, I hide my feelings on a shelf)
The vengeance inside me keeps growling
(My mum tells me I need some help, Then send me help)
The vengeance inside me keeps growling
(See, I lost this battle with myself, these feelings I have never felt)
(They tell me that I need some help, well I need some help)

I lost a battle with myself
I hide my feelings on a shelf
My mum tells me I need some help
Then send me help
See, I lost this battle with myself
These feelings I have never felt
They're saying that I need some help
Well, I need some help