"messy" lyrics

Remember our first kiss, we were both wasted
You had a boyfriend, I should've waited
Went out for pancakes first thing in the morning
Agreed to forget it like we could ignore
The way we kissed like we had done it before
Like no one in existence ever done it before and
I still feel kinda bad about that guy at your dorm
But if I knew the end, I would do it again

It was messy and I loved it
But I'm older now, I'm above it
I thought it was cool then, but it wasn't
We screwed it up into something
Something I don't wanna lose
Messy, but not hard to choose

Now we're together, we're different people
And you're having feelings for other people
Try not to freak out when there's some tension
You have a special need for attention
Used to love it, but it's scaring me now
And our love ain't going nowhere, it's just leveling out
I wonder if you felt like this when you let him down
Is it all in my head that you might do it again?

It was messy and I loved it
But I'm older now, I'm above it
I thought it was cool then, but it wasn't
We screwed it up into something
Something I don't wanna lose
Messy, but not hard to choose

I don't want you to resent me like I'm holding you back
But I think this is a problem from your mom and your dad
I can love you through the seasons, I can fill in the gaps
But I can't be brand new and forever to you