"Better If I Just Pretend" lyrics

Exploring my sadness
Grieving someone still alive
I know why I'm like this
Because
A part time of me died
When I left you
When I lost me
When I trusted you just because you were lonely
We have history
So
You're owed all of me

Now I've been
Smoking a lot with your friends
I think it's
Better if I just pretend

Better if I just pretend
Better If I just pretend

I'm a stranger on your polaroid's
And you started a wildfire on our memories
You left a trial of pesticides and seemed
To poison all your company
Your garden never grows
It's something I now know
While I watch us decompose and fertilise whoever's close
To wherever you are now
And the lies from your mouth

Now I've been
Smoking a lot with your friends
I think it's
Better if I just pretend
That we're cool
Carrying the string of ghosts from what we had now
We were friends but
It's better if I just pretend

Better if I just pretend
Better if I just pretend
(Better if I just pretend)

(Now I've been
Smoking a lot with your friends
I think it's
Better if I just pretend
That we're cool
Carrying the string of ghosts from what we had now
We were friends but
It's better if I just pretend)

When I left you
When I lost me
When I trusted you just because you were lonely
When I left you
When I lost me
And I trusted you and now I still feel guilty