"Meaningless Sex" lyrics

It's the day after and I want you to stay for a while
I lose my grip on your shirt, I'm laying here in denial
Dissociating 'cause intimacy scares me a lot
First time my eyes are open, first time I don't fear the touch
Why can't you see what I see?
My God! You can't see at all
If you saw what I see, you wouldn't come when I call
You'd be arrogant, I'd see your face on every screen
Instead you waste late nights on a screen laying next to me

And when I'm begging for it to be over
I imagine you say:

Can I stay for a little while?
This isn't meaningless sex
And I want to fall in love again

People pass me on the pavement
And they don't seem to make a sound
God! When you're away, all my thoughts are fuckin' loud
You called me heroin, but heroin is never this sweet
If this was heroin, then you'd still be shaking at my feet
They say they don't like to kiss, so I ask for a hand 'round my neck
To feel anything at all, but we're kissing in my head!
Is loving just how you fuck? Is it just how you get off?
If so, I'll lie down right here
And let you
Just to feel love

And when I'm begging for it to be over
I imagine you say:

Can I stay for a little while?
This isn't meaningless sex
And I want to fall in love again
Can I stay for a little while?
This isn't meaningless sex
And I want to fall in love again

Do you love me despite my body?
'Cause I've seen the way you look at me
And you look at me like you're seeing me

Just like how I always wanted to be
Now I'm crying after we had sex
'Cause I think I've fell in love again

Can you stay for a little while?
This isn't meaningless sex
And I want to fall in love again

Can you love me?
And all my body
Say I'm not just your pornography, a quick fix and some company

It's just how I've always wanted to be
Now I'm crying after we had sex
'Cause I think I've fell in love again