"I End Up Alone" lyrics

How much would you do to feel wanted?
Holding onto something, then say it's light hearted
While you're laying in a house that is rented
And you know they are paying a mortgage

I painted the walls though I know they might fine me
Running the water because I am thirsty
Paying it all back then blame the economy
'Cause I can't admit to be loved costs me money

I'm the other apartment
Loved then discarded
A moment of excitement
A relapse when you're heightened
I'd do anything for this though
A rented house isn't a home

I end up alone
I end up alone
I end up alone
I end up alone

A rented apartment alone in the city
Numerous guests in beds after parties
Though I know that you dream of a townhouse
Maybe Toronto, LA or Chicago?
I know my head is self-aware of its problems
But the child in me can't stop them
Maybe it's something I got from my mother
'Cause I pay rent like a permanent lover

I'm the other apartment
Loved then discarded
A moment of excitement
A relapse when you're heightened
I'd do anything for this though
A rented house isn't a home

I end up alone
I end up alone
I end up alone
I end up alone
I end up alone

I'll kiss you a little harder
So we can stay out till it's darker
And I beg you're thinking of me
While you're pulling on her jeans
And I'll do anything for you to see me
For you to wake up and want me:
Sell five years for the perfect body
Let you make me feel dirty
But I'm rented for a moment
It's a lease I won't end up owning
I've built this house I'm now alone in
Maybe I'm better off alone (Better on my own)

I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)
I end up alone (Better on my own)