"Beyond Blue" lyrics

I only cry every other day
I don't show signs of rain
I only lie to your face
When I'm saying that I'm okay

I probably shouldn't go to the party
When I'm on the verge of spinning out
But I needed to mask the life that I started
I needed to numb the fuck out

Then I wake up to the chamber in my head
And my new name being overused again
Wishin' I could crawl out of my skin
And find someone to be me for a bit

I know it's selfish
But it's true
I want something
Beyond Blue
Who I was once
I thought I knew
She's still out there
Beyond Blue

I catch your gaze, hand over my heart
The moment is warm and still
I kiss your face before the coaster starts
And we're at the top of the hill

Emotional stability, what's that?
Some daily consistency, big laugh
Am I sounding victimy? My bad
Let me try again

I know it's selfish
But it's true
I want something
Beyond Blue
Who I was once
I thought I knew
She's still out there
Beyond Blue