"Humming" lyrics

Humid fall, your midnight call
Sweet pool of sweat on skin
Sharing smoke and Diet Coke
The bed we're sleeping in
Suddenly you turned to me while chewing on your lip
Bluish smile, so juvenile
But then we start to kiss

And I wake up
What a beautiful dream
When you get so close, you can taste it
But it's not real long, just an hour of relief
Till my eyes adjust to the lighting

I'd re-gift my loneliness
My brain half-melted down
All that weed from seventeen
Has caught up to me now

Every kid I grew up with has lost their childhood house
No way to make sense of it
It's why I'm making sound

Let me wake up from this horrible dream
Where what feels true is nothing
And there's no one at the top to believe
What a way to feel in your twenties

Do we stay numb?
But you can't when you've seen
How they all get off on our grieving
I don't know love
How to live in extremes
But we're made to try through humming

I'm convinced our sinking ship
Will sing as it goes down
Haunting hymns keep echoing
After we're in the ground

And they'll wake up to this horrible scene
Where they left us out here for drowning
And it's our blood on their hands, never clean
Never clean, never clean, never clean

Never
Never clean
Never clean
Never clean
Never