"Charades" lyrics

Ladies and gentlemen
You are about to witness
The most death-defying leap ever attempted
Watch her closely

The words, they don't come easy
But the feelings come all strong
I know words should make me happy
If sometimes I play along
My chest on set fire, there's no burnin' in my lungs
Just an empty space I've labeled as
"The things that I should love"

All that cuts through
Is the fear of what I'll lose
I was born a welfare baby
With the blisters in my shoes
Pretendin' that I'm small
'Cause I'd be in trouble if I grew
Pretendin' I was fine
'Cause I'd be in trouble if they knew (Trouble if they knew)

I've been confusing, afraid and well-behaved
Been sacrificin' things that I want because I thought
That it would make me brave
And since the pastor kicked me out because of tithes that went unpaid
I don't waste my time at all, and nobody answers when I pray
Are you good at charades? (Oh, oh)
Can you see that I'm bleeding on the stage
Can you feel the things I'm screamin' even when I cannot say?
I don't talk to God, I don't talk at all
I'm quiet most these days
So are you good at charades?

Three words and four syllables
Doctor told me I'm not invincible
But I've been livin' like I was for far too long
A big world feelin' real small now
Every day, I'm dizzy and a roundabout
Daddy told me that he won't be coming around

The only way that I'll get through
Is to tell them that I refuse
'Cause I was born a welfare baby
So I got nothing left to lose
And I'm pretendin' it don't hurt
'Cause I know somehow I'll make do
I know exactly how to be alone
Because it's all I ever knew

I'm afraid to feel like a burden, so I lie awake
Try not to get too attached 'cause I know that they'll leave anyway
Ever since that pastor kicked me out because of tithes that went unpaid
I don't waste my time at all, and nobody answers when I pray
Are you good at charades? (Oh, oh)
Can you see that I'm bleeding on the stage?
Can you feel the things I'm screamin' even when I cannot say?
I don't talk to God, I don't talk at all
I'm quiet most these days
So, are you good at charades? Are you any good at charades?

Maybe you and I, we should play
Should we give it a go, 'cause nobody knows?
At the end of the day, it's just a harmless game
Well, I don't wanna give it away
And I know you could get it if you paid attention
Are you good at charades?
Are you any good at charades? Mm