"Lessons" lyrics

I'm alive, that's a plus
But it's getting heavy, better lighten up
I'm a liar, I'm a lush
I don't think I'm ready to let go of the rush

Hold on so tightly to my pride
You'll never see the tears I cry
Behind the curtain where I hide
Once they dry, I'm runnin' to the spotlight

But I don't wanna lose control
I feel the ceiling cavin' in
And all the lessons that unfold
I learn again and again and again
And I don't wanna lose control
I feel the pressure cruisin' in
And all the lessons that unfold
I learn again and again and again
And again and again and again and again

Fall in love, call my bluff
Think he's on a knee but he's just pulling the rug
All alone, all for what?
Look around but I don't see someone I can trust

And now the blame is only mine
I'm in a hell of my design
'Cause I don't know how to define
What I want, what I don't, now I've run out of time

I don't wanna lose control
I feel the ceiling cavin' in
And all the lessons that unfold
I learn again and again and again
I don't wanna lose control
I feel the pressure cruisin' in
And all the lessons that unfold
I learn again and again and again
And again and again and again and again

All of my history plays out in front of me
Like they're reruns on the screen
All the same mistakes, fuckin' up every take
And I'm the same in every scene
Killin' off the cast, showin' up in all of my past
Like I'm some human guillotine
Calling "Cut, that's enough," I should go with my gut
But I don't 'cause I know that I

I don't wanna lose control
I feel the ceiling cavin' in
And all the lessons that unfold
I learn again and again and again
I don't wanna lose control
I feel the pressure cruisin' in
And all the lessons that unfold
I learn again and again and again
And again and again and again and again
And again and again and again and again (Ooh)
And again and again and again and again
And again and again and again and again (Ah)

Ha-ah
Ah, ah-ah
Ah-ah