"Bullet" lyrics

I got this bullet by my side
With my name on it (with my name on it)
If I pull it don't you cry
I can't take this shit (can't take this shit)
The silence never felt this loud before
Please make it stop (please make it stop)
I hear the sirens right outside my door as my body drops
(Oh no)

I'm trying hard to be strong
Why does being alive feel intrinsically wrong?
Every night I'm caught and getting higher than a pitch
Popping all these pills and I take a couple swigs
Whiskey in my liver and the smoke in my lungs
Heart growing bitter I don't like who I've become
Always on the run from myself every chance I get
I don't ask for help 'cuz they abandon ship
So I sink by my lonely
And I drink till I feel like the old me
But I know this potion is false hood
I guess truth and I started on the wrong foot
So I dance with these pretty lies
And the trance while the pain's hidden in disguise
Take a quick look in his eyes
You can tell he's unhealthy and sick inside

And nothing feels the same
Everything feels so strange
Why must everything change?
My thoughts are so deranged
Inside my brain is hell
I wish I could dispel this curse that's plaguing me

I got this bullet by my side
With my name on it (with my name on it)
If I pull it don't you cry
I can't take this shit (can't take this shit)
The silence never felt this loud before
Please make it stop (please make it stop)
I hear the sirens right outside my door as my body drops
(Oh no)