"Waves" lyrics

Can't express how I'm feeling 'cause I don't even know
I'm surrounded by people, never felt so alone
I know my heart is pumping but I can't feel it know
My chest hurts yet I turn all help down

I'm a puppet trained to live, my tears are toxic and
I don't know how to forgive myself I'm tired, I'm sick
Everyone around me looks blurry
And I can't seem to find your helping hands right in front of me

Life is coming in waves and I can't turn away
Crushing in on me, I'm buried underneath
Life is coming in waves, don't wanna turn away
Crushing in on me but I don't wanna leave

I don't know what to say or how to find the right words
There are times when I think it might stop to hurt
But then I take a breath, swallow a hand full of dirt
I spit it out, exhale until it covers my shirt

I'm a puppet trained to live, my tears are toxic and
I don't know how to forgive myself I'm tired, I'm sick
Everyone around me looks blurry
And I can't seem to find your helping hands right in front of me

Life is coming in waves and I can't turn away
Crushing in on me, I'm buried underneath
Life is coming in waves, don't wanna turn away
Crushing in on me but I don't wanna leave

I'm wandering around not knowing what's to find
Living like there are no stars to be aligned
Thinking no one's here to help me get through
Facing a wall keeping me from you
I'm wandering around not knowing what's to find
Living like there are no stars to be aligned
Thinking no one's here to help me get through
Facing a wall keeping me from you
(Keeping me from you...)