"hate my hometown" lyrics

I've always hated my hometown
Thought my life was just cursed
Going 'round in a circle
I tried to run from this hurt
Now I'm in a parking lot
Crying cause' I miss my mom

I thought I hated my parents
Swore I'd never be them
But now that I'm older
I crave their hugs once again
And I know our love was flawed
But it was pure and just enough

I miss you
Like the sun misses the moon
I can't change you
So how do I love you?

Forced myself to be perfect
Made a world of my own
Wishing for a new family
An all-american home
Now I cry when someone new
Hugs me like you used to do

I wrote this song to say I'm sorry
For the times we used to fight
Tried to rewrite my own story
Of the worst years of my life
Now I can't cry cause'

I miss you
Like the sun misses the moon
I can't change you
So how do I love you?
When we're miles apart
Broken from the start
I can't fix you
So how do I love—

You don't have to say I love you
Cause' I've learned to understand you
Without words
Without blame

And I know things will feel different
When you're gone and I'm here listening
To the words
We'd never say

Even after all I've broken and become
You always stayed