"Armor" lyrics

Okay we think we're in control till we're not
Then we're helpless
You turn your head
The big empty comes along and says,
I don't wanna know how much money I got left
I don't wanna see my phone or read no messages
I wanna starve myself till I'm beautiful
Hey what the fuck is that?
Thought I could fix myself without the dysphoria
Paul heard some philosopher said hope is fear and fear is hope
I'm sisyphus and you're the rock I'm pushin

There I go again
Projecting on you
And I hate myself
So I turn it into art
Or something dumb
Put my armor on
No one can hurt me when I put my armor on

How come I only wanna fix it once the truck breaks down?
Ends up in the gutter begging for forgiveness
If hell is real, how do I know for sure?
I ain't living in it already right damn now?

All around history is repeating itself
I'm on a plane kinda hoping that it goes down
I bet there's gotta be a peace that you get
When you finally know the rides gonna end

There I go again
Projecting on you
And I hate myself
So I turn it into art
It's something dumb
Put my armor on
No one can hurt me when I put my armor on

It fucks with my head when I need you
So I build a wall, baby brick by brick
I need new ways to outrun you
But ain't nothing changing, something's gotta take a break here quick

Okay, I guess we just go until we die
I had my shift drink, now I'm just dancing down the starting line
You're so aware that your time is running out
I said time is love, what I'm scared of is an empty mouth
Love is time
Love is looking for your keys in your couch
Love is knowing you gonna say some dumb shit, run your mouth
Love is time,
Time is love,
Love is pride
If I take my armor off would you put that blade through my side?

There I go again
Projecting on you
I hate myself
So I turn it into art
It's something dumb
Put my armor on
No one can hurt me when I put my armor on