"Monochrome" lyrics

I woke up drowning in a sea of monochrome, blegh

Feeling everything in black and white
Dreaming of a world where I feel alright, but I can't
Sick of fighting this feeling, I think I'm drowning in it
Losing sight of all meaning, I think I'm lost within it

I am a shadow, a ghost, a shell of myself
I have you to thank for the man I am today
A coward, a sinner, and everything else
And I have you to thank for the man I hate today
Thanks to you, I'm a sinical being with nothing left
Thanks to you, I would rather be bleeding than know the rest
Thanks to you, I can't sit with myself without a premonition
Watch as I slowly decay into an apparition

Thanks to you, all I feel is alone
Thanks to you, I will chose to die alone