"Cycles" lyrics

I get this thing every night, where I forget to breathe
I feel like I'm singing ballads that aren't meant for me
Keep losing myself in somebody else's melody

Try to mend everyone's heartache, but I can't heal my own
Distract myself in the sorrow so I feel less alone
It's no surprise, nowadays I barely check my phone

I live my life in cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
I live my life in cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles

I'll take what anyone gives me till I'm invincible
Then send drunk texts for drunk sex till I feel valuable
I've turned hurting myself into something so casual

Yeah
Cause I keep having this dream where I spit out all my teeth
Wake up in the cold, I'm alone with this broken heart machine
Cause lately the only person breaking my heart is me

I live my life in cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
I live my life in cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles

Try to survive in cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
I'm running blind in cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles
Cycles

Sometimes I genuinely think I might be losing my mind
It's like I thought by like running away and carving out this big fucking grand meaning for myself
That eventually I could make it all make sense, but-
The more I run down that road the more I realize I'm just repeating the same patterns over and over again
I pick up my phone, I put it back down again
I miss my friends all the time, and I still never call them and-
It's the same movie with the same storyline
But I keep hoping for a different ending each time I play it over