"crash" lyrics

Crash, over the edge, over the edge
Crash, not just pretend, not just pretend
Crash, never again
That's what I tell myself
I'm looking for something else

Don't know what I came here for
Sitting on the ocean floor
And I can't even swim
'Cause I can't feel my limbs
Will it always feel this way?
If I'm not numb, I feel afraid
I'm barely keeping up
Will I be enough?

Baby, just dive, free-falling
Baby, don't hide, let it begin
Oh, let it begin
And I don't wanna

Crash, over the edge, over the edge
Crash, not just pretend, not just pretend
Crash, never again
That's what I tell myself
I'm looking for something else

I left you with the chemicals
I put you on a pedestal
Alone in paradise
You were always right
You said

Baby, just dive, free-falling
Baby, don't hide, let it begin
Let it begin
And I don't wanna

Crash, over the edge, over the edge (I'm not crashing)
Crash, not just pretend, not just pretend
(And I don't wanna) Crash, never again, never again (I'm not crashing)
That's what I tell myself
I'm looking for something else

I am attracted to the light
And at times it can be destructive
But sometimes change is required to grow
And right after the sunset
The sky is painted a deep, rich shade of blue
That reminds me why I'm still here
And why I shouldn't give up
Because without all the pain I've felt
I wouldn't appreciate the beauty
That came afterwards
This is my Blue Hour