"everything at once" lyrics

I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said, "I am fine," but we both know I'm fakin'
I'm not feelin' numb, I'm just feelin' everything at once

Hate when you ask how I'm doin', I know that you're just assumin'
I'm better now, not bleedin' out
Get outta bed on a good day, lately that's all I can do, hey
I go through Hell to hide myself

I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry, that's why

I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said, "I'm fine," but we both know I'm fakin'
I'm not feelin' numb, I'm just feelin' everything at once

(Oh, oh)
I'm just feelin' everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feelin' everything

Whatever I do, I can't slow down, please don't leave me alone now
'Cause when I stop, my demons talk
I'm comin' off apathetic, I play it off like it's an aesthetic
Clearly, I care too much, but I'm foolin' everyone, oh

I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry, that's why

I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said, "I'm fine," but we both know I'm fakin'
I'm not feelin' numb, I'm just feelin' everything at once

(Oh, oh)
I'm just feelin' everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feelin' everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feelin' everything at once
(Oh, oh)
I'm just feelin' everything at once