"FEAR" lyrics

Hello, darkness, my old friend (Hello)
Knocking at my door again
Begging me to come outside
I'd let you back into my life
Now, usually I'd be strong enough
To lock the doors and keep 'em shut
But not today, I'm desperate (Desperate)
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in
So go ahead and come on in

OCD is worse than ever, hands are bleeding, maybe I should take the pills, don't (Woah)
Know what's going on with me, some days I actually think I might be schizo— (Woah)
Phrenic, prolly not, but even writing this is making me begin to spiral, oh God (Oh, oh, oh)
Made a promise to myself I wouldn't let the fear back in, but then I did though (Woah)
Told the world that I was sick of running, then went back to running, what a joke (Woah)
Disappointed? Yeah, me too, I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not (Oh, woah, oh)
It's the same song and dance, you have seen it before
Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor
Every decision made isn't mine anymore
Like a puppet with strings, I just don't have a choice
What's the truth? What's a lie? Help me, God, help me, Lord
"Face your fears, dry your eyes," Grandma died, what's the point?
Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy
Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice

Desperate

Standing back
Watching my mansion
Burn to ash while I—
Hold the gas can
Asking God if
He started this fire

Is this what You wanted?
Is this what You wanted?
Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them to rest
Is this what You wanted?
Is this what You wanted?
Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is
Is this what You wanted? On the verge, on the edge
Is this what You wanted? Petrified, scared to death
Is this what You wanted? Praying to God, desperate
Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?
Is this what You wanted? Hanging on by a thread (Oh, oh, oh)
Is this what You wanted? Empty heart, nothing left (Oh, oh, oh)
Is this what You wanted? Breaking down, spiraling (Oh, oh, oh)
Is this what You wanted, what You wanted? (Oh, oh, oh)

(Is this what You wanted?) Standing back
(Is this what You wanted?) Watching my mansion
(Is this what You wanted?) Burn to ash
(Is this what You wanted?) While I— (What You wanted?) (Oh, oh, oh)
(Is this what You wanted?) Hold the gas can
(Is this what You wanted?) Asking God If
(Is this what You wanted?) He started
(Is this what You wanted?) This fire (What You wanted?) (Oh, oh, oh)