"To My Father" lyrics

To my father, you must save me
I feel soulless, I feel crazy
Called my mama, I said, "I'm hurtin'"
But she don't know how the fuck it feels when the Devil's workin'

Been talking to God, I hope that you're real
I'm praying I feel some'
You can try to detach the problems you have
I promise they still come
What if the problem is me?
Don't wanna leave, I'm praying you let go
I'm totally fine with being alone, I told you I really am that numb
So, what do I do when loving on you is never enough?
I try to be patient with loving myself, I don't give a fuck
So, what do I do when I'm drunk and feel like just taking my life?
I promise that you wouldn't bat me an eye
You wouldn't care if I died

To my father, you must save me
I feel soulless, I feel crazy
Called my mama, said, "I'm hurtin'"
She don't know how the fuck it feels when the Devil's workin'

I feel the sky crashing down over me
Why should I live when it hurts just to be me?

Or who I thought I was
I spent too much time drinking all this liquor
Now I only like me when I'm drunk
It's fucked up, I know
The only name I write in my own death note is me
Suicidal thoughts, broken tendencies
Healing isn't easy, something that I've learned
Nothing you could teach
If my God is real, listen to me speak
I really need your help, I'm 'bout to kill myself
Fallen to the ground, in my tears, I drown
Can you hear me now?
Blood on the floor, cuts on myself
Fucking hate myself, I try to change myself
I don't need fucking help, nothing fucking helps

With my brain
Please help me solve the riddle
It's causing all my pain

To my father, you must save me (Oh)
I feel soulless, I feel crazy
Called my mama, said, "I'm hurtin'"
But she don't know how the fuck it feels when the devil's workin'

I feel the sky crashing down over me (Oh, no)
Why should I live when it hurts just to be me?