"Worth 2" lyrics

Thought that we was family, saw eye-to-eye
Invited you upon my boat that seldom rocks side-to-side
We ate at the same table
I've always dropped supply
Now you're tryna spread your name by lying on mine
I'm hurt, this sucks
My worth, my trust
I'm cursed as fuck
I learn, I must
I deserve better than this
I wish what keeps us tethered never dared to exist
And I pray the word of hatred that you spread to these kids
Comes undone sooner than later, there is depth to your steps
I don't operate in bad faith, bro, I act decent
With the words you source your asshole from nonetheless have meaning
Took it upon myself to guide you to my heart
Took no disguise, yet you still consciously decided to just toss that all aside
In favor of perceived personal gain, no grace
Maybe the drugs are really burning your brain, there's no trace
As you observe things irreversibly break
I wonder what or who the voice within you turns to now blame

I'm sick of getting tossed aside for what it's worth (I'm worth)
I wasn't anything, I was your [?] for everything
You were the lesson, I said it
The rhythm it tossed me on my side, I'm in the dirt (I'm first)
I wasn't anything, I was a trip to the better thing
Although the pressure was deafening
You [?] me off, I let it slide, I'm never first (I'm worth)
I wasn't anything, I was your [?] for everything
You were the lesson, I guess it pissed you off
But I decide I know my worth (I'm worth)
I know my worth
I know my worth

I'm not afraid of you no more
Feelings on the backburner
Turn me to a fast learner
Every mention from my cynicism
Is it just me, just me?
Seeking a stranger validation
Every steps have been out the pavement
This was my shit and know I hate it
Not blaming you, well kinda, I am
My therapist told me not to point no fingers
My momma had told not to take no shit
My trauma had told me not to fucking linger
For what, I'm a mess on a Tuesday
Got my [?] you were stretching it two ways
Out of spite [?] the depth in what you say
I ain't saying nothing less but the truth, ayy, ayy, ayy
Don't talk to me unless it's "Sorry, sorry, sorry"
I ain't tried a fucking cake, but hey, the pity party's gnarly
I got pitchfork tips they poking innards
This the shit you won't remember
How convenient how your brain works
Mystery laced red stained shirts
Better talk you down, that ledge is tempting
All these workarounds got me pessimistic
Won't ever bring me back empathy that I granted you
I guess we just different
The saddest part about it is I trusted you
Kiss my very instincts
Thank god I had the chin strap (Scuare!)

Take a look inside
Ain't no love for you
For you to hide
You took my love, you took my life
I should've expected you would fake me all this time
Woah
What do we deserve? (You decide, you decide, you decide)
Woah
What do we deserve? (You decide, you decide, you decide)
You decide, you decide
I will not get lost in intentions
Walking off with my innocence
I thought I lost it all long ago
I guess I often not broaden scope
Awful reason
Lost in my feelings
[?]
Do I deserve? (Do I deserve?)
Do you deserve? (Do you deserve?)
What do I deserve, who do you deserve?
What do we deserve?
I think I lost my plate
Should I shrug off my weight?
Could I fix all my holes and then go on my way?
I don't know and I just don't know

(I'm worth)
I wasn't anything, I wasn't [?] to everything
You were the lesson, I said it
The rhythm it tossed me on my side, I'm in the dirt (I'm first)
I wasn't anything, I was a trip to the better thing
Although the pressure was deafening
[?], I let it slide, I'm never first (I'm worth)
I wasn't anything, I wasn't [?] to everything
You were the lesson, I guess it pissed you off
But I decide I know my worth
I know my worth
I know my worth