"In Retrospect" lyrics

It's funny how I fight back
I feel at home with tension in the room
No matter how you slice that
I'm just not myself if I'm not hurt by you

Therapy's not working
Sarafem's not kicking in
All this bad shit happened
I was told to hold it in
I sing about redemption and how it never came
'Cause in retrospect, I like the pain

Lungs on fire, head under water
My mind is a weapon, cold war inside my head
It fuels my obsession, 'cause who am I if not a wreck?
It seems I'm kind of fucked up in retrospect

I thought he was praying
Turned out there was no one listening
She threw us on the kitchen floor
Bruises bloom where clothes are torn
It taught me what love means

Therapy's not working
Sarafem's not kicking in
I open up my scars so I can bleed again
It proves that my heart beats inside my dead, cold chest
It seems I'm kind of fucked up in retrospect

Lungs on fire, head under water
My mind is a weapon, cold war inside my head
It fuels my obsession, 'cause who am I if not a wreck?
It seems I'm kind of fucked up in retrospect

Have you met another, another like me? (Like me)
Have you seen a mind so riddled with disease? (With disease)
Have you met another, another like me? (Are you like me?)
How can I erase everything I've seen?

Lungs on fire, head under water
My mind is a weapon, cold war inside my head
It fuels my obsession, 'cause who am I if not a wreck?
It seems I'm kind of fucked up in retrospect

Lungs on fire
'Cause who am I if not a wreck?
Head under water
Who am I if not a wreck?
It fuels my obsession
'Cause who am I if not a wreck?
It seems I'm kind of fucked up in retrospect